i haven't updated in what seems like forever....a lot has happened and a lot hasn't...if that makes any sense. mom went in for a test on thursday that was unconclusionable, she goes in for another tuesday...i am really scared cause i know they will do surgery again but in a way i do want it and in away i dont. it sounds mean and cruel i know but if she were to have the surgery it could all heal up again, but if she didnt she would be able to stay home and be with me. it sounds horrible but i jsut want my mom better and not knowing the future is what kills me. i have become closer to people i didnt think would happen...ever. i went on a girls night out with my GIRLS on a friday night...we had dinner @ TGI Firdays, went to the mall, and saw the movie Walk The Line it was the best night i have had in a long time. i see people around me @ lunch and see how they put on these fake smiles and i hate it cause i do the exact same thing. u dont know how i just wanna scream and let out all my feelings to u guys...but i cant cause i will feel so bad...and its not like i can talk to my girls casue everyone is my girl and its not fair to tell one and not the other...thats how gossip starts and i hate it. i went to the basketball game friday night which was so much fun... jv won and varsity lost(purely cause of height) i got a chance to hang with people that i havent been able to and i really did enjoy myself. i know that each and everyone of them are such good friends to each other. and i love it. there is so much more i want to tell you guys and cant...if u see me in school ask me and i wil tell u i just cant say now cause certian somebodies may be readin it...and its not who u think either. in other words nothing bad only GREAT!!! 
Toodles my Noodles
Robyn
so today i had to work from 10:00 to 2:30 and then i went christmas shopping from there. 
i bought so much stuff i am almost broke but i got a lot of cool stuff. i cant wait to get it out to yall~while that i still have so much more to buy...ugh...it seems like it never ends.
last night was a blast i went out with my girls to dinner, the mall, and a movie. i cant believe how much fun we had i love u so much. anywhos yeah so stuff has happened but i dont know how to take it in and how things will turn out and i am worried!! 
what to do...what a predicament...
Toodles
Robyn
i know that i just wrote not 2 minutes ago but can anyone think of a better sign off? i think that i have totally worn out....let me know if ya think of one...k?
Robyn
Can i just say that i absolutely love where i work, and everyone who i work with. its sounds weird but so true and i am finding my way through life just by meeting new people. i know that sounds weird but i dont know how to explain it. i feel as though i am actually finding my way but dont seem to be in my body i feel wierd and unsure, as if i dont know if this is really happening. it seems strange but i guess that my life is actually going to turn out only just with many obstacles to push through. i think that with each obstacle i will become stronger and more willing to be myself. hopefully that is how it is now because i hate when people live their life according to others and not be themselves. it seems so fake and as much as i wish it wasnt it is like the book The Catcher In the Rye . i know your probably thinking that i am a nerd but i just like to reach outside the box and pull out information...idk. say what you will that still wont change who i am because the more you judge the more i will become stronger. wow that was totally emotional and deep!!!
Over and Out
Robyn
so yeah THANKSGIVING was great i ate and stuff. but then i got really tired and just wanted to die i think i am getting sick...idk. anywhos am so super happy but i cant say why here so if you see me let me know that you would like to know cause i am super excited. well g2g cause i gotta start working off all the food i ate...so yeah catcha later aligators.
Over and Out
Robyn
